Its quite a fantastic thing being able to go and be somewhere or even some place and find happiness and relaxation. My vacation proved to be just that, however I can’t help but wonder why I needed to go miles and miles away, around lots of other people, and some where I’d never been to achieve those feelings of positive. A major change to actually feel happy.
I’m currently in a life long quest and it some ways even in an adventure to live, think, and put forward myself, to have a true and positive perspective. Whether it be reading a book alone, or at concert around thousands of screaming people. I find it exceptionally interesting to think about all this with the idea or experience of vacation in mind.
The place that I usually find the most comfort in is the wilderness. Being in the mountains away from all the noise and light and headache of the city. Totally at peace with the simple fact of solitude and tranquility are now the biggest and most obvious changes in my environment, that give way to allowing the mind to slow, and the soul to be more receptive to life around me.
The smell of the water is the first thing I notice, next of course the utter and opulent beauty of the country in whole, but most predominantly the trees. Towering and standing like living statues paying homage to the vastness and astoundingly intricate planet that is their mother. The feeling is almost overwhelming to realize that we as humans are only a small simple part in the life of all we know and have yet to know.
Perhaps this is way once we have a significant change in our environment we have a significant change in our mind and mood. The only thing I didn’t was change my physical address if you will, to somewhere peaceful and sound. Opposed to a place crowded and polluted with noise people and mindlessness. Now, I can barely even think of such dullness. I seem to be absorbing and adoring
a magnificent fullness of being “away from it all.”
The trip as amazing, the weather was stellar, even the planning of events and being properly prepared was actually quite correct in being precisely what we needed. The constant reminder to me of all this was how incredibly happy we all were with almost no
effort in doing so, or creating such a positive and wholesome way of being. The admiration of such liveliness, had a gravity of immense relevance and I wanted to completely analyze everything. Of course I didn’t because I didn’t want to cease living in such a moment.
Now I have the time to reflect and wonder. Now I have the time to question and mediate my own thoughts on the matter. The one question that seems to come into conscious thought most is; why is it so hard to create and feel such relief and such a happy way of condoning myself in such positive ways. Even with seemingly boundless things to be happy about then. They are still there when I’m not, which I am aware of, but how can my environment be such a defining factor when I feel my mind and perspective should be the major determining matter. I feel like you can be literally anywhere doing anything and unless you’re happy in your heart and mind, nothing is going to make you happy. Yet, when you’re at work, or stuck in traffic or absolutely of course, doing something you don’t want to be doing, why is happiness as elusive as the kingdom of heaven in a mustard seed? Its most peculiar to me to find that even the harder I try, finding happiness or creating it, becomes harder the more I try to have it. Perhaps there too much mind involved, maybe its just the balance needed in life to have the good with the bad. Either way I can’t help but feel and realize that when it comes to creating or even allowing, a positive perspective or said happiness, environment seems to be the key to having such things. Is the height of happiness directly related to the perspective of environment? Hopefully soon all these questions and maybe more will be answered. As always, time will tell.